entering into the deep silence with a tiny bit of apprehension.

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we have RETURNED from our new year’s Contemplatives Retreat!

it’s not for Everyone (and as we pulled up the driveway and saw the Others arriving in their ecologically-appropriate cars with snappy slogans on bumper stickers we Had to wonder if it was for Us, to be perfectly Honest)

“The call to the creative life is a call to dignity, to a life of vulnerability and adventure and the call to a life that exquisite excitement and indeed ecstasy will often visit.”
― John O’Donohue

but, you know, it was delicious.

we Entered the Deep silence (as one of our spirit-filled-teachers at the Retreat sonorously urged us to do post-banging of a small Gong) to say goodbye to the last day of 2013 and great the fresh new 2014-ness.

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“The call to the creative life is a call to dignity, to a life of vulnerability and adventure and the call to a life that exquisite excitement and indeed ecstasy will often visit.”
― John O’Donohue

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we paid a Supplement for a single room because we used to do “dorms” but our memories of schooldays sadly faded with the reality of No Trunks, Matron or lights out or the rustle of a mint-in-a-wrapper passed surreptitiously to the next bunk.

quiet and rustic – in the middle of a grove of ancient live oaks.

we wrote for a while and then tried to sleep.

“The world rests in the night.”
― John O’DonohueAnam Cara: A Book of Celtic Wisdom

ah.

but what Nobody tells you about deep contemplation and Quiet and rest and Silence and HOURS of Meditation is that one becomes so still, so completely emptied Out of the quotidian worries and distractions that – well – *nervouslookoffcamera* – It is a Bit Scary, to be honest.

there’s a reason why all those distractions exist, you see.

“May all that is unlived in you blossom into a future graced with love.”
― John O’DonohueAnam Cara: A Book of Celtic Wisdom

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“This is the time to be slow,
Lie low to the wall
Until the bitter weather passes.

Try, as best you can, not to let
The wire brush of doubt
Scrape from your heart
All sense of yourself
And your hesitant light.

If you remain generous,
Time will come good;
And you will find your feet
Again on fresh pastures of promise,
Where the air will be kind
And blushed with beginning.”
― John O’DonohueTo Bless the Space Between Us: A Book of Blessings

all we can say is This:

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we have returned from the Contemplatives Retreat at a (former) convent nestled in the live oaks of california – speak softly ;)

 

10 comments on “entering into the deep silence with a tiny bit of apprehension.

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  2. You are very brave. There is nothing more daunting to me than going into a very long meditation. It’s like holding your breath – I can do it for a short time, but long stretches take real lung capacity, or in the case of meditation, heart capacity, and courage and patience. XXXX

  3. *lowers voice*
    this is probably the best way to transition into a new year. happy and lovely and successfull and healthy new year, cashmere and chandeliers ;)
    p.s. I walked past a very old-looking, dusty shop in kreuzberg specialising in… chandeliers and fixing them. lots and lots of crystal loot.

  4. “May all that is unlived in you blossom into a future graced with love.” A lovely blessing to contemplate. Left to solitude I would probably have fallen asleep. Were you permitted to do that?

    • there was quite a lot of that strange head nodding that happens but then one gets jerked into reality by remembering that one is not lying elegantly on a chaise but (supposedly) bolt upright in a room full of other people (also head nodding we noticed as we peeked ;-)

      such a strange and yet beautiful way to great the new year.

      we’ve done worse.

      put it that way.

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